creative mood

crazy wknd whats new
avoiding hmwk as usual

I really like this passage from the book im reading Invisible Man:

"I was to remember sooner than I thought.....community leaders without followers; old men of sixty or more sitll caught up in post-civil war dreams of freedom within segregation. the pathetic ones who possesd nothing beyond their dreams of beiung gentlemen, who held small jobs or drew small pensions, and all pretending to be engaged in some cast, throuch obscure, enterprise, who affested the pseudo-courtly manners of certain southern congressmen and bowed and nodded as they passed like senile old roosters in a barnyardl the younger crowd for whom i now felt a contempt such as only a disillusioned dreamer feels for those stil unaware that they dream-the business students from souther colleges, for whom business was a vague, abstract game with reules as obsolete as Noash's ark but who yet were drunk on finance. Yes, and the older group with similar aspirations, the"fundamentalists" the "actors" who to achieve the status of brokers thorugh imagination alone."-Ellison


I really think this fits me perfectly;
I always wanted a certain kind of love,
I want it to be inconvient,
I want to sacrafice for it.
I want the kind of love
that wakes me up at 3 am.
I want love that hurts,
love that I have to work for.
I want love that tests me.
I want the kind of love
that is hard to find
and hard to keep
and never easy.
I want the kind of love
where you get hurt.
I want love
that makes me cry.
I want to hold on even if
it takes me through
my worst nightmares.
But most of all
I want the kind of love
thats worth it.

think about it, is that what you want? because its not the ideal romance by any sort of typical way

anyways, im really behind in work from daydreaming, friends visiting and enjoying the globally warmed winter

i have a meeting everyday this week

im really enjoying my classes though, even though im a week ago according to the syllabus
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