"To love is to risk not being loved in return".

"To love is to risk not being loved in return. To hope is to risk pain. To try is to risk failure, But risk must be taken, Because the greatest regret in life is to have risked nothing "


Man it takes a silly girl to lie about the dreams she has

Lord it takes a lonely one to wish that she had never dreamt at all*

__________
And I wonder where these dreams go
When the world gets in your way
What's the point in all this screaming
No one's listening anyway
They press their lips against you
And you love the lies they say


FOREVER FRIEND
one doesnt get too many of those now do they? who are yours? For whom are you one?

_____
lifes flying by
its a game everyone plays
no rules
no right answers
its a choose your own adventure style novel.

blur of a weekend

well
tons has hpnd since my last post
but lets talk about love

i was all confused and then found i wasnt and then he was confused and then i was again but now.

we've been at this for a month on off on off and i know i want to be with him. funnily enough it took coming so close to losing him to realize how much i want him.

love is SCARY. its like putting your heart on a little glass plate and handing it to someone to like, balance in their hand. All they have to do is flip their hand and SPLAT ure heart shatters on the floor and that hurts soo bad its like each shard of glass then stabs you all over,
...and now both of us know what that feels like.

and it SUX.

i just wana be happy and in love like we were all summer. our relationship has matured so much. im now ready to like, move on to our new stage.
10 MONTHS. ive known him this entire year. I don't know one day of 2006 without him in my life. thats pretty crazy now isnt it? He's been in my head for 300 days! ahh thats a lot. lol. and Every single day. only a handful of them have we not talked. but he was stil in my head and heart.

loves a funny thing.
it can make you feel On Top of the WORLD like you have some secret lifesource and you and this one person share your own little bubble that No one else can ever see or know about or feel.
It can also make you feel sicktoyourstomach want to crawl in a dark hole and waste away from the pain.

And everywhere in between.

its tough. i mean love + school = inevitable complications. and love so young is always gona be more drama. most of us are just getting a sense of who we are but at this age as soon as you figure it out before you know it you're changing again! and changing With someone is not an easy thing to do. My mom talks about it like when I asked kinda like, how her and Dad manage to be married for their entire lives like close to 40 Years! and she explained it like, they were lucky in the sense that theyve changed together, like obviously over that time theyve completely changed who they are but fortunately they're still completely compatible and have learned to adapt to one another and deal with eachther and so are able to trust in their love for one another.

anyways though-love love love

Love takes time. It needs a history of giving and receiving, laughing
and crying...

"It is the passion that is in a kiss that gives to it its sweetness; it is the affection in a kiss that sanctifies it."

this one is def. true for this relationship! lol
"I want to feel passion, I want to feel pain. I want to weep at the sound of your name. Come make me laugh, come make me cry... just make me feel alive." Oscar Wilde

Entra en mi vida, te abro la puerta(a certain song i thought of this one week last january...)

"You know you love someone when you cannot put into words how they make you feel.
You learn to like someone when you find out what makes them laugh, but you can never truly love someone until you find out what makes them cry".

love is so fickle, back and forth, hot and cold, perfect and disastrous
such a juxtaposition of opposites
but sometimes it makes so much sense.

the view from our last summer...

we trace the sun across the sky



and we laugh till we cry

always so hard to say goodbye

and we all sit round here in out home town

it's so good like this, these are times we'll miss

the memories, i hope they'll never fade

glowing embers lie across the sky
________________
Can you feel it?
I didn't mean it
Can I see you?
What are we doin'?
I think I love you
But I ain't sayin'
Nothin' you don't know
_________________________________
I've written you this letter,
got it back return to sender.
But I just can't remember you being quiet like that.
Misunderstand, we're holding hands,
we're at the beach, we're throwing sand.
As the lights just go up all around us
I'm sitting under falling stars
and I wish you were here with me
___________________________
A foot note in your dance of days
In my mind that record still plays
Still wonder what the hell it says
I'm hoping there is time today
____________________________________
I wanted to write one perfect song
To make you cry in your sleep.
Kind of like a soundtrack for your dreams,
To let you know I'm watching
And making sure it turns out alright
________________________________________
Yes indeed I'm alone again
and here comes emptiness crashing in
it's either love or hate
I can't find an in between
Wish there was something new I could say or do.
I can resist anything but the temptation from you.
-ben folds

Tell me you love me
Come back and haunt me
Oh and I rush to the start

Running in circles
Chasing tails
Coming back as we are

Nobody said it was easy
Oh it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard
-coldplay
____________________________________
I don't know if I can make it.
I don't know if I'm that strong.
I don't know where we went wrong but somehow it's over.
In my mind I see you clearly.
In my dreams I feel you near me.
I want to know, does this feeling go away?

_____________________
Sometimes I wish I had never met you
because then I could go to sleep at
night not knowing there was someone
like you out there.
____________________
"Love is friendship that has caught fire. It is quiet understanding, mutual confidence, sharing and forgiving. It is loyalty through good and bad times. It settles for less than perfection and makes allowances for human weaknesses."
___________________________
don't know what I was looking for when I went home, I found me alone
And sometimes I need someone to say, You'll be all right. What's on your mind?
But the water's shallow here and I am full of fear, and empty handed after two long years
Back home I always thought I wanted so much more, now I'm not too sure
Cause sometimes I miss knowing someone's there for me and feeling free
Free to stand beside the ocean in the moonlight
_____________________________________
Another day is going by
I'm thinking about you all the time
But you're out there
And I'm here waiting

And I wrote this letter in my head
Cuz so many things were left unsaid
But now you're gone
And I can't think straight

This could be the one last chance
To make you understand

___________
the way you hold your knife
the way we danced till three
the way you changed my life
oh no, they can't take that away from me

quotes

I’ve learned that good-byes will always hurt, pictures can never replace being there, memories forget the hard times, words can never replace feelings, and heroes often go unsung.

Maybe some people just aren’t meant to be in our lives forever. Maybe some people are just passing through. It’s like some people just come through our lives to bring us something: a gift, a blessing, a lesson we need to learn, and that’s why they’re here... you’ll have that gift forever. - The Gift

Giving up doesn't always mean you are weak; sometimes it means that you are strong enough to let go. ~Author Unknown

Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it's better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together. ~Author Unknown

Love is like a puzzle. When you're in love, all the pieces fit but when your heart gets broken, it takes a while to get everything back together.


Sometimes I wish I were a little kid again, skinned knees are easier to fix than broken hearts.

I am tired, Beloved,
of chafing my heart against
the want of you;
of squeezing it into little inkdrops,
And posting it.
~Amy Lowell

Where you used to be, there is a hole in the world, which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime, and falling in at night. I miss you like hell.

Never be sad for what is over, just be glad that it was once yours.

How lucky I am to have known someone so hard to say good-bye to.

We laughed until we had to cry, we loved right down to our last goodbye, but over the
years we'll smile and recall for just one moment we had it all.